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Summer is not really a " summer" anymore. Who knew i would be looking forward to going BACK to school?! Thats sort of sad and pathetic but i really miss my jbu friends, having them as your family, living in the dorms, and more pathetically, i miss little siloam springs!
Taking care of 12 three olds is not an easy job. but i have learned that i really do enjoy it and i am learning so much about how to love kids that are not your own when they are SO unlovable at times.
"Summer will make you or it will be break you"... well, folks, its making us. Nate and I are doing awesome ( today is our 8 month! woohoo! ) Every day i grow to love him more and more and its just really awesome to truely understand the depth of love you have for someone. Its so pure and true and that makes it so much more awesome!
Right now, at this moment, i am feeling a bit overwhelmed/underwhelmed/emotionless. i know, it doesnt really make sense but thats that.
I have changed my major ( 3rd times a charm!) for what i do feel is going to be the last time, to Early Childhood Education with an emphasis in Fine Arts. I had an epiphone a couple weeks ago, realizing that my true desire is to work with Kids , while being creative and doing my own thing and teaching. The education major is so broad that i can do so much with it too, which really is great ! I really feel a joy and peace inside about this and i am actually excited, which is the first time ive felt this way!
anyways, Julie Boriss, i want to hear from you since i am sad i didnt get to see you before you left for Australia! | | |
| Im sitting in the phoenix airport waiting for my second flight to ontario, California to visit my sister ( shes graduating from APU a year early. i know, crazy.) and go up to Mt.Herman for a week. I finished my last final this morning , was extremely anxious to be done with finals, handed the exam in, left the room and realized i didnt go back and answer a few questions like i had meant to do. Oh well. Im done. it doesnt matter.
My freshman year was absolutly amazing. The best year of my life hands down. I cant believe its over.
im extremely emotional and exhausted because saying goodbye to your best friends for 3 monthes is not the easiest thing in the world to do . Luckly i dont have to say goodbye to Nate yet, since hes coming to the lou for a week soon. Then im going to be a SERIOUS wreck. luckly im going to keep busy, working hard, taking dance at The Dance Floor again, and being productive ( hopefully. )
Its going to be weird to be back at home where everyone else from highschool is there too. Im not sure how i'll handle that.
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| Just got back from a relaxing spring break in st.louis and the lake of the ozarks. now it just sucks being back. I got really used to not doing work and having to be stressed out about stupid school work. Im so ready for summer and yet so NOT ready to deal with being away from my friends and nate for 3 monthes. ( seriously. that sucks.) but hopefully ill be making some mula at Olympiad ( where im working this summer) which is a gymnastic/cheerleading/dance place for younger kids. i get to teach and work the camps so that will be enjoyable for me. Im also working at Technology Partners, where my mom works. Ill be doing office crap for them and getting paid really well for it so yayhoo.
im so tired of school work. papers , books, reading, tests. i feel more stupid than i ever did in highschool. im not really doing that well in my classes this semester, partially because im only taking gen ed's so there extremely boring, and partially because its spring and my attention span has gotten lost somewhere 3 monthes ago. i guess ive just accepted that a C in college is not that bad? even if im not happy with it, no one actually cares about your grades once i graduate anyways.
i want to go swimming. | | |
| well, it is second semester and it has a very different taste than first semester. Alot less " wow this is so new!" and more of " this sucks all i want to do is sleep and i have 2 papers to write and 2 exams to study for". Right now im not going to chapel and im sitting in my boxers wrapped in my favorite soft blanket typing to this thing i dont ever update anymore.
My life this year has been amazing and it has progressed so much. I have grown , alot. Jocelyn , my amazing neice, is 6 monthes old now and pretty much the most adorable baby you have ever seen, and thats not an understatment. This week is Valentines Day AND my 3 month with Nate . A double wammy! Anyway, if you dont know Nate, you are missing out. I spotted him like, the 2nd week of school or something. we played ultimate frisbee together ( yes, i know, how cute. ) and Soon got to know eachother and 3 monthes after careful talking and consideration, we finally felt we couldnt wait any longer( i was planning on not dating at all 1st semester... i only made it to Nov ).
Anyway, our relationship is growing and it is amazing.
School is obviously hard and i dont enjoy working at all. Ive decided to switch my major from Digital Media, to children and family ministries with a minor in graphic design. That way, the most important thing to me ( being a mother to my children someday) will be benefited, along with having a job with computer art. I hope it all works out
Right now i feel like going home and cuddling with my mom on her bed and watching laguna beach or a sappy lifetime movie. We dont even get lifetime here. or a big cuddly bed. Or a bathtub. Just a tiny shower not big enough to shave my legs in with water that is so hard your skin and hair are flaking off the second you get out.
Im kind of ready for the summer. Mainly because im getting so annoyed of my roommates phone ringing 25 times a day when shes NEVER in there. Along with the annoying phone ring is the most annoying sound in the world, the AH AH AH AH sound on alarm clocks. She sets it for 3 hours before her class( why? im not too sure either) and hits the snooze button about 6 times. therefore, i wake up EVERY FREAKING TIME that stupid AH AH AH AH AH sound goes off.its great, let me tell you.
On a lighter note, last weekend i went salsa dancing at this club thing and it was just about the most fun dancing ive ever had in my life. I felt so free, my hips definitily werent lying, and i sweated more than i have ever just working out . It was great, Nate and i had a blast. And now my hips are sore .
thats enough to last you at least another month or so, enJOY! | | |
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I cannot express the magnitude of how much i have learned in the past 3.5 monthes. I have learned the immense passion that God has for us, how much he wants to be in our lives and grow in us.
I have honestly felt more alive in the past 3.5 monthes than i have in years. Highschool is over. and i cannot be more thankful for that. I have no desire to be back in that whatsoever.
When i look at the whole scheme of things, it is much easier for me to see why i have delt with the things i have, what the reasons were for them, and how God has shown me the power of growth and understanding through them.
Lately, or rather, for a few monthes now, i have been trying to notice life's simple things. There are so many daily things and opportunities that we miss, because we are so caught up in the routine of daily life. It amazes me to just stop , breath, and look around me every once in awhile. There is so much beauty everywhere. Beauty in nature, beauty in words, expressions, people, actions, reactions...everything, everyday.
Its sort of weird to be back "home" right now. It brings back memories, good and bad. It also brings understanding and realizations i never knew before. I feel like i never realized how amazing my family is. How much i love them and how much i have been blessed with two loving parents , 3 unique wonderful siblings, 2 beautiful sister-in-laws, and 1 adorable beyond belief niece.
I really wish that i had more time on my hands. To read and expand my knowledge on a lot of things. Of course, i could be reading right now instead of writing this, but thats just not me now is it?. lol. Sometimes, you need to just, vent even if it is to a website that you have no idea who is reading this . It feels good to put into words on a screen thoughts in my head that are hard for me to express verbally.
Well , Merry Christmas & Happy Hannukah everyone  | | |
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